Well, yesterday I felt gloomy and scattered and part of me wanted to quit. Small surprise, as I was editing the part of the book where my character was feeling despondent, hopeless, at the end of her rope, and ready to give up. She travelled on through sheer force of will.
I made it past that part today, feeling just as gloomy initially, but then everything changed. Things went from bad to worse for her, but she didn’t have time to wallow at first. She had to deal with life threatening situations, being alone and lost, being separated from her friends, and then save someone important to her, twice. She had her pity party, picked herself up, and kept going.
I wrote furiously, even as an edit, everything just coming to me. Honestly, I cried through much of it, releasing stress and worry and fear right alongside her. I poured our joined hearts out on the page, sharing our feelings and fears, our small triumphs and hope, and I feel so much better.
How can a character affect me so much? More importantly, will she affect others the same way? I’m almost done, so soon I’ll have that feedback from other people. What I do know is that my characters can affect my mood. Yesterday not only did I write about her down mood, in my new book I wrote the funeral scene of a beloved elderly member of the community, and a scene in the romance where he hit rock bottom. Today it felt so good getting to the point where she could take positive action and begin turning things around. I haven’t done any work on the other two books, as the first one wants to be done.
I’ve written scenes I’ve shared with others that have had them in tears, or jumping out of their skin, or grinning happily. I feel if the story can move me, it might take the reader on the same journey. Only time and readers will tell. In the mean time, I go in realizing my own moods may be impacted by what I’m writing and by my own personal circumstances. I have patience and kindness for myself, and continue to bring myself from my writing as much as I can.
Go write something that moves you.
I’ve been writing stories for myself for years. Now, I’m a published author. No genre is off limits, though I have some favorites.